Thoughts on This Year’s Autumn and Why I Don’t Feel So Excited About It

It’s Autumn again. This is the time of the year when I feel excited and happy about the changing of the seasons. Temperatures cool off. The days get shorter. Everyone is excited about the holidays that happen in the last months of the year. I am always excited for this time of the year. Yet, this year, I’m not excited. In fact, I’m not excited at all.

This year has not been an easy year for me. Stuff at work has been bothered me. Comments made by others I used to know have haunted me. Comments from people I run into also haunt me. Vehicle problems persist. My housing situation has made me realize I need to move. Where I will be moving to is an issue. How I will afford the move is also another issue. And, of course, my health problems, including major allergic reactions, have caused me to stay home and rethink my current day job.

With everything happening, I don’t feel like going out and doing fall activities. I want to find a new home, fix my vehicle, get a new job, and for my health to return more than buying a real pumpkin for fun!

Whenever there is a season of life like the one I’m going through, I need to focus on doing something enjoyable. Something like buying a real pumpkin for fun. Or going somewhere I usually go to celebrate the season. Still, with so many things going on, I’m struggling with the decision of if I should or shouldn’t do it. The problems I’m currently having require constant monitoring. Not all my problems, but many of them. I know that I will be better off if I do this instead. I also know that if I do something for fun, such as go on a vacation, this could cause me more problems down the road. Worst of all, I feel like I’m running away from my problems and delaying fixing them until another time.

I know I am in a time in my life when I have to work more than normal. I believe there is a time to rest and a time to work. Right now, I am in a time in my life when I must work. This also means I cannot enjoy things, such as Autumn, like I want to. I am sad about this, but not every Autumn can be a happy one. I know I will be happier next year when things will (Hopefully!) calm down and I won’t need to worry so much. Maybe by that time I will be able to enjoy Autumn more than I did this year!

In the mean time, I’m trying to celebrate the best I can. I decorated the house. I am looking for somewhere to go to celebrate fall and won’t aggravate my allergies or make me feel ill. I am making a point to look at all the fall decor in store and wherever I go that decorates for the seasons. I am still looking at the real pumpkins and considering if I should buy one for display only or for display and making pumpkin pie out of. (This will depend on the kind of pumpkin I purchase) I also enjoy looking at the mums for sale at Walmart!

Just because life gets hard, doesn’t mean you shouldn’t enjoy life. Instead, you need to focus on whatever is available that brings you joy and happiness. Even if that is something that never brought you joy before!

Well, that’s all for now! Thank you for reading!